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The Month Of April Isn’t For The Weak
The Month Of April Isn’t for the weak in my home. For The last 5 years watching my son with Autism suffer with Disassociation Identity Disorder is the hardest thing to watch and the trigger month seemed to be in April. It was more consistent, and more intense. It becomes the month where my patience is really tested my son doesn't see me as his mom the protector he see me as the one that has harmed him. I could recall when the therapist finally took me seriously when I told her the first time it happened.
I was getting him from school, the first time it happened. His teacher brought him out, Usually I get a big grin. This time it was serious his eyes were dark. He obviously wasn’t there. Then that’s when he called me by the name of the one who harmed him and went for me. I wasn’t mom anymore in his eyes. The teacher and I just looked at each other. With a confused look in her face. She said he had a good day. It happened that quickly.
On the way home, he would say, “Where’s mommy” Some times I would have to pull over and stop the car. The eyes were so dark, we’d get aggression, sometimes meltdowns.
Mind you I already worked 8 hours in a very complicated special education classroom.
The month of April isn’t for the weak
